A Fresh Start
Through blogging I've also discovered two hobbies I love. I was starting to get into photography just before I started, and I've always had an eye for composition, but my blog and Instagram have really helped me hone my skills, learn what I like, and reach the point where I'm happy to call myself a photographer. I'm not sure I'd call myself a writer yet, but writing for an audience has taught me how to write positively, which I've never been able to sustain on paper. The result is that, regardless of whether anyone's actually reading, I end up with a journal of happy memories to look back on. Authenticity is a big buzz word online, and it's easy to get the impression that you should be baring the darkest depths of your soul for the world to see, but honestly, my angst-ridden diaries aren't a particularly authentic account of my teenage years either!
Anyway, I could (and might) get into more detail on why I disappeared for a year and my intentions now that I'm back, but for now I'm happy to be making a fresh start. I decided to get my very own domain (my .com, for anyone lacking the lingo), which feels like a commitment, a treat and an investment in myself. As usual I won't be sticking to any particular schedule, but posting when I have something to say. I think I've hopefully stopped caring too much about the fact that posting publicly means that people I know (but whose opinions I don't actually value) can read what I write. Therefore I'm hopefully going to be posting some thoughts that are halfway interesting to the people I want to read them. Having a target audience instead of trying to blend in feels like absolute common sense but also, somehow, like a big and scary dream, so I'm going to end on that note!